its the little things

i admit little things upset me or sometimes put me in a all out rage ....BUT i have become so used to hiding my emotions i have seemingly have grown accustom to one the one emotion of not caring. i dnt like to do that on purpose but ppls thoughts and feeling have long gone lost all tpe of effect on me smh its sad but true my mind doesnt process things like it used to and ive lost all caring...i know i hurt ppls feelings sometimes but i dnt do it purposely its my defense mechanism against the world and all mankind sorry and goodnight .....

It's Really Not Worth It

Sometimes when you put in your hard work on something it seems like in the end it really wasnt worth the time or effort, but in truth everything does have it's own special purpose but that doesnt mean you HAVE to like it. take college for instance...i procrastinated SO MUCH with college and now i'm assed! IDK what to do where im going or how to go about the process or if i want to start in august along with 97% of my 2010 graduates. did you know that over 98% of our population start something and NEVER finish due a huge amount of procrastination....im definetly apart of that 98% smh....college seems scary but to me who the hell wants to grow up!!! i mean highschool was sorta fun -__- it had its totally f@$%ed up parts but i dealt....i survived and in truth it helped me grow but i honestly hated alot of ppl my senior year(you just didnt know because im such a nice flippin person) :) .......what is the purpose of college besides another 4years of school and annoying teachers who got upgraded and got the label as professors smh don't get me wrong im happy for all my friends who got into GREAT colleges but like the rest of people who are stuck well it sucks alot of A$$ ok! my minds made up though just to get away im gonna re-apply maybe even aim for a out of state and leave my stinkin house so i dnt have to deal with my stinkin mom but hey who knows.....like i said im a HUGE procrastinator so i MIGHT change my mind later :D

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HOLA COMA ESTAS ? well my day just came to a close....i hope -_- . i FINALLY went to see eclipse im so proud of myself YAY p.s it was AMAZING and jacob aka taylor lautner was hot!!!!!! but i have a topic i wanna discuss with you guys today so im gonna be posting it in the blog after this...but gimme a sec i gotta take a shower LMAO

beginnings

BLAH i honestly dnt know why i started this blog.....maybe i just felt abt typing abt the pointless things that go abt in my daily life or maybe enlighten you on somethings. First off let me introduce my self the name is Shakema (not shameka as u can see the k comes b4 the m lol) im 17 slowly awaiting 18 on the 9th day of the 9th month :). im frm the lovely city of NY !!! but trinidadian in my heart <3>

i was told start this blog to connect and deal.....BULLSHIT! u can only connect by eating cookie dough and icecream (well atleast thats my theory lmao) lets see how this blog goes frm here...i'll try not to bore you guys to much and talk alot but i will try to entertain -__- ....but thanx to everybody who urged me with this blog Lavon, Cassandre, my 2 sisters, Nicki and well to the assholes that inspired me to write abt u lol good night cruel world . :D